Moving forward

I am moving to a strange city and leaving everything I know behind. It will just be me, starting a new chapter in my life. I could've stayed close to home, lived where all my friends are, taken the safe, more comfortable route, and I almost did. But then, how would I ever know what I am truly capable of? How would I be ever to live my life to the fullest? I would rather regret taking a risk than regret being too afraid to try. When I come to die, I don't want to discover that I have not lived. So although I am scared out of my mind, I am also eagerly awaiting the day that I get to suck deep the marrow of life.

You awake?

12:00am: you awake?

12:03am: I am

12:12am: I'm always awake

12:21am: I think it's the darkness

12:22am: it makes me lonely

12:23am: that's why I always text you at night

12:39am: I miss you

12:51am: tell me about your day

12:52am: I wish I was there with you

1:01am: it's been a while since I've really laughed 

1:02am: you always made me laugh 

1:03am: but I guess you're making others laugh

1:04am: that's okay

1:27am: I try not to text you, but my resolve falters at night

1:46am: I'm sorry

1:55am: so sorry

2:04am: I guess I'll talk to you later

2:30am: I still miss you

2:47am: I always miss you

Time

Time, you fickle thing

A minute turned an hour

An hour made a minute

A moment stretched to years

And years gone in a moment

I am trapped in your world

And I don't know your rules

I am at your mercy

And just as the world turns

Just as the seas churn

Just the seasons change

You go forward

Heedless

Reckless

Endless

Insomnia

Silence is never really silence.

Lying under the sheets,

your body sweating from the heat,

you hear all the noises that fill the silence.

The hum of the computer,

The occasional squawks of the parrots,

The air passing through your lungs

Out your nose,

Anything to distract you from the darkness up ahead